This is a long time in coming, and in some ways it’s already
happened. After 10 years of posting in various forums, I’ve decided to stop
pretending that I’m writing a music blog any more. This blog hasn’t existed in
the same form for all these years. For those of you who have stuck by for the
last decade, you’ve seen it morph from Facebook notes and Xanga to blogspot and
even my own URL, which my wife bought me as a gift. But here we are, at the end
of 2016. I have a newborn son. Life has taken me everywhere and to many places
I never dreamed I’d go. And all the while, blogging has become harder and more
like a chore. The internet is saturated with blogs too, and any designs I ever
had on becoming a high traffic site suffered under the reality that I never
knew quite how to make that happen. But every time I thought about stopping, I
pushed on, driven by the kindest comment or a single individual who was opened
up to a new band or a new favorite song because of me and The Past and the
Pending.
If you’ll entertain me and you have time to read, I want to
write some thoughts down. And if no one ever reads it, that’s okay too. I
always knew the blog was more for myself than anyone else. It was a way for me
to organize and diary something very meaningful to my life. And I love having a
written record.
I don’t exactly know when this all happened. Growing up I
listened to almost all Christian music, plus my dad’s Elton John album, a
greatest hits collection played live in Australia. As a kid I think my favorite
song was “Place in this World” by Michael W. Smith. My first “secular” love was
“Black Balloon” by The Goo Goo Dolls. Like many my age, I had a distinct Linkin
Park phase in high school. Things change. Some things do not.
Nickel Creek, The Shins, Radiohead, Sufjan Stevens, Band of
Horses, Jimmy Eat World, The Hold Steady, Spoon, The National, Bon Iver, The
Killers, Something Corporate/Jack’s Mannequin and everything Andrew McMahon
touched. These are the artists that shaped me. These are the albums I’ll play
my son. Someday maybe The Hold Steady’s “Separation Sunday” will become my
son’s version of my dad’s live Elton John album. I can only hope.
Nothing can top that early thrill. I was not exposed to much
music growing up. Discovering entire discographies at once is overwhelming and
exhilarating. I got to discover Radiohead all at once. To me their first new
album was “In Rainbows”. I still remember going into Best Buy and buying three
albums all at once: Interpol’s “Antics”, Keane’s “Hopes and Fears”, and Snow
Patrol’s “Final Straw”…on the same day! And that meant I hadn’t even heard
Interpol’s masterpiece “Untitled” yet. I got two burned copies of The Shins’
two first albums at the same time and fell in love. And yes, I was one of those
people who fawned over Garden State. Natalie Portman and “The Shins will change your life” and all that jazz.
In 2007, for some reason I
decided to write a Top 50 songs of the year. I didn’t know then that I’d do 10
of them. Or that anyone would actually care. The first #1 song was “Australia”
by none other than The Shins. It should have been my #7 song that year, “Detlef
Schrempf” by Band of Horses, a song that is deeply meaningful to me.
“So take
it as a song or a lesson to learn/And sometime soon be better than you were/If
you say you're gonna go, then be careful/And watch how you treat every living
soul”.
At some point the blog stopped
being fun. And while you might think it’s because so few people read (that's undeniably a factor, admittedly), that
wasn't the main driver or I couldn’t have kept it up for a decade. In
reality, my perspective on music criticism has changed. I used to review
albums, positively or negatively. I used to have best and worst songs. I used
to make fun of bad lyrics, and eviscerated the likes of Owl City, Nickelback,
etc. I was part of the online hipster hater club. I stopped that a while ago,
focusing purely on recommendations. I now believe you can like whatever you
like, and viewed the blog as a way to say to my readers “hey, if you’re looking
for something new, try this”. So I stopped doing pure reviews. If the album
wasn’t good, I just didn’t talk about it. That left me less to write about. Second,
online music blogs have changed too. There’s so much noise. My favorite blogs
are touting EDM and indie hip-hop more and more. Free mp3’s aren’t as readily
available. My peers are 30+ and have kids and don’t want new music as much, and
the younger consumers of online content mostly like things that I do not. And
sharing a blog post on your facebook news feed? Just clutter. More noise and
clutter among a noisy and cluttered world of social media. I know it and you
know it.
I want to thank you. Some of you have been reading here and
commenting for a long time. You stopped me from quitting dozens of times. All I
needed to know was that I helped you find a new favorite band or song. In the
last ten years if I’ve helped you find that, that would make me very happy.
Thanks for the love and support and requests and comments. It has always meant
a lot. And if you still want recommendations I’m still here. I’m not giving up
my love of music, and I'll still do a top 50 in some forum simply because I still like that part alone, but I’m giving up feeling like I need to write about music. So
farewell, my friends, and thanks for reading.
